A few days ago, I shared a picture of some fancy new heels I got while in the US – actually, I got them for a special occasion. Stilettos. It’s been awhile… a long while – five years to be precise since I last wore something like that. Obviously, I still wear shoes, and still even wear a lot of heels but had transitioned to either thick heels (like these) or wedges (like these). They were more practical, easier on my back – easier for airport runs and definitely easier to be on my feet when I was giving stand up presentations, often ones that were all day in length (and yes, those are long days, and no, those presentations shouldn’t be given in the shoes pictured here).
I know that there are a million reasons why stilettos aren’t the best for you, and frankly, there are a million reasons why I shouldn’t have bought these, and should have done something more practical and measured instead. But I can’t help it – I saw them in the window of the shop and I just loved them. I went back the next day and I still loved them.
My grandmother is a huge lover of elegant shoes…and, as is sometimes the twist of life, is a person who can no longer wear them. She doesn’t have much use of her feet, walks with great difficulty with a walker, and often times has tremendous swelling. She actually can only now wear one pair of shoes – a set of beige, very bulky orthopedic shoes – the same pair every day. That, I might add, she is grateful for because it allows her to walk at all.
But she did sigh to me one time, wishing she could for one night dance the night away in the pairs of Italian handmade goodness that used to be in her closet. It occurred to me, that might be me one day. In fact, if my pregnancy edema both times was any indication, it will be me. It runs in the family. So I decided that sometimes, we should just be a little frivolous because we can; someday the option might no longer be ours. I don’t buy shoes like this all the time; in fact, I never do, but this time, I thought, “just this once”.
J.Crew coined the term “shiny ponies” for these type of shoes – you know, the ones that wink at you from your closet and just beg you to take them out for a spin. These are my shiny ponies for now – they’ve come out for a special event here and there; sometimes with a dress, sometimes just with jeans. They’re special to me. But even when they’re standing safely on display in my closet they remind me to be grateful…for the full use of my body…for my full health…for the resources that I have to do something nice for myself…for having places to go in shoes like these that are full of friends and family and good times…for making the most of all the gifts and resources I have right now. At least I won’t look back and say, “I should have…”. I’ll look back and say, “that was fun, and these were beautiful.”
A few more ponies: